I don’t take those words lightly. I have recently changed my life for the better and I am making a conscious effort to experience and be present in the day, hour and even the minute.
For years I have been a mere spectator. Keeping my head down as I walk through the gale winds that have defined my life. Never lifting my chin to see that the wind was under my own control 99% of the time. Lifting my head, breathing in and opening my eyes and truly wanting change were the switch to creating a life that was a good one. One with clear wonderful memories not just looming dark shadows that I could not define. I finally inhabit my body! Even if the events of the present are painful, I am feeling. That is something that I never let myself do before. My hiding places were many. Alcohol, food, sex, and outright denial to name a few. My core though, never stopped crying out to be whole. Now I am listening and acting on my soul’s request for the beautiful feeling of being truly alive. before me is a truly happy woman with a beautiful existence. I am loved deeply by my family and friends but now, most importantly, by me.